complicated

sometimes...we need to pay more than enough for careless...by not only using those belong to our own, from other as well...
what u get from just now is just few seconds..but i need to pay for u!!!gosh!...stud,i paid hundreds for ur impatient!!!would u ever feel sorry to me? would u ever regret?well..that's not the point n..who cares?i want the compensation!!!coz of u!!i can't buy a new guitar for own utilitised !!#%$$&&*(@$@$%&!!!!!

well another one,can u pls walk away for a while..just a while pls..
else,just tell me what u want from me?
will u take it if i really give?will u really do?well..i'm not yet prepared..need time in finding courages..need time to make out...
or...am i thinking too much?but...i can't find way out..
alright..just stay still then...u may steps away but pls dun walk closer pls...


*a post from schizophrenic

大爱

well...i'm gonna start my post by using chinese..er..since i 'mastered' it few days ago...
又是心情沉重的一天。。。er，应该是半天。。。
今天发生了一些小意外在我朋友身上。。让我对她有更进一步的认识，深一层的佩服。。。
惊慌的时候，还可以面带笑容，只因怕影响朋友的心情。。。
能这样处理事情的人，说真的，我没遇过。。。又有多少人能做得到？
令我联想起燃烧自己，照亮别人的道理。。
不明的感觉跟着涌了上来。。是心疼？感激？还是愧疚？也许是3-in-1。。。
失去的未必不能再拥有。。
属于你的，愿能重返回归于你--无私奉献的人。。

a piece of cert

i'm a person who really like music alot...especially those days i hav the chance in playing different instrument n with those members..we were like using the way to release..n the feeling's so real......but now...feeling gone bad..
well..i need to explain...i'm still living in my own world of music with my own guitar...but i miss the chance..i gave out..as i really wonder...it's kind of relief or regret when i made the choice...n the reason brought me to the drop is actually coz i can't adapt to the situation..well...although there r still many more...but i do believe nothing can changed my mind if i really wished to join..i was working hard even i was not so willing in handing the post...but i really can't adapt to the way of u all acting..especially the way u all treat my fren who gave opinion sincerely..feel so sorry to her..since so...i quit..i told myself..i finished up my work..n i will not touch it anymore(it's kinda irresponsible i know,but i can't find way out at tat time)my feeling judged everything at that time...
yea...that's the fact that i'm not one of them anymore...n please...since the result is like this..dun ever give me anything wch i dun deserve...even it's a name on any booklet or a piece of cert...make me feel so guilty...i really do!