a piece of cert

i'm a person who really like music alot...especially those days i hav the chance in playing different instrument n with those members..we were like using the way to release..n the feeling's so real......but now...feeling gone bad..
well..i need to explain...i'm still living in my own world of music with my own guitar...but i miss the chance..i gave out..as i really wonder...it's kind of relief or regret when i made the choice...n the reason brought me to the drop is actually coz i can't adapt to the situation..well...although there r still many more...but i do believe nothing can changed my mind if i really wished to join..i was working hard even i was not so willing in handing the post...but i really can't adapt to the way of u all acting..especially the way u all treat my fren who gave opinion sincerely..feel so sorry to her..since so...i quit..i told myself..i finished up my work..n i will not touch it anymore(it's kinda irresponsible i know,but i can't find way out at tat time)my feeling judged everything at that time...
yea...that's the fact that i'm not one of them anymore...n please...since the result is like this..dun ever give me anything wch i dun deserve...even it's a name on any booklet or a piece of cert...make me feel so guilty...i really do!